Monthly Archives: November 2014

Momentum

I had a couple of commitments to deal with today: a date at the gym and some prep for dinner tomorrow. They got me moving in the morning and kept me going. Once I’m in motion I’m not too bad. … Continue reading

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For one

There is a big difference between doing things for one and for two. Cooking for one is a perfect example. First … why bother? Sharing beautiful food is a social thing. If there’s nobody to share with, it’s hardly worth the … Continue reading

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Labels

I dislike labels. They are confining and prescriptive. A friend referred to me as ‘single’ the other day. It shocked me. I understand that I am alone now but in my heart I am still very much committed to the boy. ‘Single’ … Continue reading

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Paying the piper

I have learned that I can steer the emotional waves by blocking out time to let the grief in. The facilitator in the informational group I went to suggested this strategy and I’ve been giving it a try on days when I … Continue reading

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Searching for more

Sometimes when I’m not doing well I find myself on treasure hunts for lost pieces of the boy. I’ve searched his computer and his phone for photos I may have missed, or something he may have written that I haven’t … Continue reading

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Unemployed

I made it through my last day of work today. Turned out to be much easier than I expected, despite getting very little sleep. It didn’t feel like my last day because I’ll be going in again on Friday. I had lunch … Continue reading

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Melt down

One of my biggest crying jags hit last the other night as soon as I turned out the lights. Every time I thought I was done, I’d start again. When I get into this state it is literally gut wrenching. My diaphragm … Continue reading

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